Pretend.

I am so sick of pretending.
I really really dislike you. And you.
Say I'm mean. Say I'm evil.
I just need you for *some reason*.


I meet up with 2 of my primary bff.
Had a fun day!
A blast!
Now, without them. I feel empty. Hollow inside.
I really want them with me.
But, that's impossible.

Update

Sorry for not updating for so long. Was busy with exam and was watching drama. Finished all 25 ep in urm 3 days :D

Love

I LOVE Hello Kitty :D. I am a teenager but I still love Hello Kitty. Its so adorable! ><

Exam.

Exam. Sheesh. I dislike exams. I kinda like it cause no homework but ugh! the pressure ahhh! I want some cupcakes yo! :D LOL I freaking need a new DP for my Fb acc. All ze' frens all nice nice but mine, if u look u'll go blind.

Cacat =='

Sigh. I forgot what was so cacat ady. WAIT. I rmb now. I needa study for the exam and I am Fb-ing and blogging. Internet is so hard to resist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

 NEEDA STUDY! 

Seriously?

GAH! FACEBOOK!
SERIOUSLY??
Why my account??
Oh, I'm having the account unavailable problem due to site maintenance.
I searched for solutions but found things that scared me. Facebook said it will be down for a few hours (less than 24hrs) but, a lot of the comments said not. Some account was down for days. I'm scared. I want my account back! Mark, fix it please! :'(

Notice that...

I always blog about my feelings instead of how my day went and stuff? I guess I'm just ME! :D Bye! Gotta get ready for school now. :(

AM I THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND???

AM I??? HUH??


HOW MANY FREAKING TIME DO YOU WANT ME TO ASK YOU TO UNDERSTAND ME??? DON'T YOU GET IT??? ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT??? CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND ENGLISH??? EVERYDAY, I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL NOT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS BUT HAVE YOU EVER CARED ABOUT MINE??? WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THAT PERSON TO GIVE UP SO OTHERS CAN BE SATISFIED??? WHY DON'T YOU BE THE PERSON WHO GIVE UP NOW??? YOU TAKE THINGS WAY TOO SERIOUSLY. YOU CAN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND A FREAKING JOKE FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. AND YOU CALL YOURSELF A FRIEND. DON'T GET ME WRONG. I DON'T HATE YOU. BUT, SOMETIMES, YOU JUST HAVE TO UNDERSTAND ME.

Haiz...

I miss her.
I really miss her.
I miss my best friend.

LOL. I just saw her yesterday after 3 months. I miss her. Thats why I was feeling so grumpy today. But, twere some people I hate who made me like this too. ANNOYING SHIT. Omnomnomom I am so sad. I wan her. My best friend. Too bad we are in separate schools. :'( SAD. SAD. SAD. She is just so amazing an pretty and smart and gorgeous and I LOVE HER.

 

Time.

Time really does flies. Its already August. We've been JUST friends from close friends for 8 months. When are you going to open up to me again? We used to be 15cm away, now, a few km. I really miss you. Why do you, well at my point of view, dislike me so much? What have I ever done wrong to you? I never lied to you. Now, you don't even smile at me. You used to give me those OMG-icantotallydiefromthisomgsofreakingawesomesmile. Now, you just give me those cold icy stare. Everytime I think, you occupies my mind forcing me to go crazy. Can't you just talk to me? Can't we be close like we used to? I really miss you. :(

School.

Well, today at school thing was a little good. :D If I continue then my secret's out so... Bye! *fornow

You + Me = _______

Solve the equation above. Its so hard! I can't solve it!

The Story Of Us.
I believe you have heard it before. Well if you haven't. Search online and hear it. Or at least read the lyrics.

The song lyrics reminds me a lot about my life. Practically my life now. Why are we so distant now? There wasn't any misunderstanding between us anyway. Or so I think. Its so confusing! Argh. Do you know how hard it is living like this? I really want you to be friendly again. Please. I beg you. Please. Are you having fun torturing me like this? Do you enjoy seeing me like this? Holding back all this words back. Resisting the temptation to tell you all this. It hard. But, I'll manage.

Project

ARGH! My project has to be passed up a month early! Teacher! Ugh. You gave us 3 months and now you say we must pass up before holidays! NO! LOL

Its hard to be me.

My life ain't any princess tale. Life's hard on me. Thing are becoming worst. But, I have to go on. I can bunjee jumping without rope but it won't do any good. People I care, I love would hurt and I an't wanting that to happen. Sigh. Gotta write a script now. Haiz, people, try to understand me a little?

Decision?

Well well what have I got myself in this time?
Easy, my friend want me to join the "National Clothing Competition". But I don't want! ARGH! I really don't want! No! Never! PLEASE NO! I jut called her and she insist that I join. I seriously doesn't want to. I told her but she still want me to join! NO! I DON"T WANT TO. I'm just gonna make a fool out of myself. I'm not those popular, beautiful, charming and cute girls. NO! Heck, how am I gonna deal with this? HELP PLEASE!