Histroy repeated again.

Again,

WHY?

Why? Am I such a loser?

Do you hate me so much?

Why?

Why?

You talked to me today, alright.

But when I come close. You went away?

I mean, DO I LOOK LIKE A MONSTER?

Anyway, to day I replace my class monitor. So I became a replacement for her. Sigh. I am going to replace ANOTHER friend. The head of cleanliness. Needa ask every lazy bum to move and do their duty. SIGH. What can I say? I'm awesome? LOL no. I'm useful. That's it!

Argh...

GAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

STOMACH PAIN! HELP! AHHHHHH! PAIN! PAIN!

PHEW.... NOW I FEEL BETTER. :D

What I love

When I want to blog, all those soul-crushing feelings flood my head and make me post emo stuffs. Well, I guess that's what blog is for anyway. Blog to express not impress. So here I am. Expressing. Well, today I won't fill you in with my problems. I'll just share something with you. So, readers. I LOVE BAKING! And reading cookbooks. Readers who knows me would find this a little weird cause I doesn't look like those kind of girls. I look more of a iron lady type than housewife type. LOL. I mean, there HAS to be that feeling on every girl. Even if its just a little tiny bit. This is why I never am too lazy to go online and search for recipe, photos and baking websites. They are just awesome! I am also willing to stay up late just to read those recipes! And, just by looking at those photos can kill me. They just look so yummy! Delicious! Tasty! I plan to make a cupcake and a tart this coming holiday or maybe...on a weekend cause I really really can't wait! ARGH! I need to control my obsession towards baking!

Must. Control. Or. Not. Weight. Will. Increase. NO!

Trying

Trying so hard. So hard it hurts.
I miss them.
My friends.
Come back please.
I wish we never went separate schools.
I'm lonely.
Very lonely.
So lonely its scary.
Please.
God, please.
I'm trying to be tough when I can't.
I'm trying to be strong when I can't.
I'm trying to not be a rebel.
I'm trying to look on the positive side of everything but it just doesn't work.

CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

I'M TRYING!!! 

Messed up.

Yup. Thats all I can say about what I'm feeling now.

MESSED UP.

Anyway, WOAH blogged too much today.

Nvm, I just wanna say sorry to those who read my past two blog post. It is really emotional.

To: Those who know me


Don't tell anyone. Don't even ask me anything about it. Please.


I hereby declare. I have emotion problems.

So true.

“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”

If it wasn't for you, I would have fallen for another.

I didn't have a choice. I mean, did you give me one?


Dear heart,
         Stop beating twice at once. That idiot doesn't care.


I wonder. Who am I in your life?

Why?

Why? 
Why?
Why?


Why MUST you be the right person at the wrong time?
Why do I still feel like this even though we are not even close anymore?
Why?
Why must I be so stupid?
Stuff like this do happen but why me?
I know I am annoying cause I keep asking why but I just can't help it.
Things are SO wrong at the moment.
I just wish that 2011 never existed.
I wish that it would be 2010 forever.
Many things hurt me this year.
And you are the reason.
If only "we" still exist.
I want 2010 back.
When "we" still exist.
When none of this happened.
When I still have my best friend.
When I still have those friends of mine.
When I could just let my feelings run free.
When life isn't so hard on me.
When I can just enjoy school.
When everyday was a carefree day.

When you and me

• talk
• argue
• tells each other stuffs
• laugh
• jokes around
• walk together
• hit each other
• send each other mental notes by eye contact
• copy homeworks
• work together
• smile at each other

When things were just......right.


I feel lost. 
Like I was thrown into a desert and found no way out.


Save me. 

:(

                     
                                                       

                             LIVE               

                            LOVE              

                           LAUGH            

                      

Something that I would like to do but impossible.

HATE!

I REALLY REALLY HATE IT WHEN I SEE SCARY STUFFS! I GET FREAKED OUT SO EASILY! UGGH! HATE! BTW, I ALSO HATE HAVING A SOMEONE IN LIFE. I HATE LOVE CAUSE I GOT HURT SO MANY TIMES FOR THE SAME REASON. AND PERSON. BUT, WHAT CAN I DO? EVERYTIME I TELL MYSELF TO PUT MY GUARD UP HIGH AND NOT FALL BUT I STILL FALL. OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IT HURTS REALLY BAD WHEN YOU FALL YET HAVING NO ONE TO PULL YOU BACK UP. So, readers I hope those who knows me, to keep this a secret. Yes u can ask me about it but secretly. Kay?

True Friend

I never knew how much I meant to my friend till I went to her blog. She trust me. She loves me. And I am her place to complain. Place to tell everything. EVERYTHING. If you are reading this, I just want to tell you that I love you too. :) Because of you, I decided to not think of transferring school cause I know that decision would hurt you more than words could describe. To those out there who hurt her before, listen up. You just lost a true friend.

My secrets :'(

YES. >< My so called secrets are no longer secrets! ARGH! Had to reveal who was my crush. My this my that. All in the name of GAME. The gun game. :D It was quite fun knowing others' secret but no. Its no fun when we had to reveal our secret. I feel like a balloon that had just burst. POP! Then all my secrets were known to my friends. Sigh. What can I do? An eye for an eye. A secret for a secret. Thats what it is.

I like it :DDDDDDD

I made this GIF. Check it out. Click on it and it will play. Try it :D

Making images is fun :D

Seriously, I love stars more than i love hearts. I don't know why but i just like stars better.

Memories.

Thing aren't always that sweet. There are always those bittersweet moments and those sour moments. I just wish for the best.

Going crazy

LOL I actually wanna make my blog into tumblr. Crazy right? Urm... No copyright inteneded. :D Hope you'll forgive me owner of tumblr.